When I read books on anxiety I would skim through pages quickly to see if my particular fear was mentioned.

It had to be my own particular fear; otherwise I would conclude that the treatment they are talking about would not work for me. If the book had not recognized or mentioned my own fear I would think perhaps this fear was exclusive to me.

I needed to see my exact fear on paper to confirm to myself that I was suffering from anxiety and not something worst or something that had not yet been discovered.

Feelings & Sensations I experienced during anxiety:
Light light-headedness
Head pressure
Fogginess
Fuzzy ears
Twitching of eye lids & lips
Waking feeling frightened & anxious
Sometimes aware of my legs whilst walking, like they became heavy
Feelings of unreality (depersonalization & derealization)
Looking in the mirror and not connecting to my image
Feelings of Dejavu
Exhaustion
Can’t think straight
Can’t cross the street unless people were either side of me
Heart beating faster
Stomach churning
Cloudiness
Jumpy
Shaky hands when holding a drink in front of people
Not being able to make decisions quickly
Loss of confidence
Sometimes not being able to make eye contact
Awareness of self
Foreboding feeling
Mind going blank
Fear of my thoughts
Dizzy
Sometime not able to concentrate fully in conversation
Worrying about symptoms

I will list a few fear thoughts I had during anxiety.

Fear of harming my child
Fear of throwing myself in front of an oncoming train
Fear of pushing someone in front of an oncoming train
Fear of going mad or becoming hysterical in front of people

Excerpt from my eBook

I was always mentally exhausted and always woke up with a heavy head and those dreaded feelings, the thought of facing another day was daunting.

My thoughts were certainly frightening; I would think things like, for example, standing by a platform in a train station. I would think gosh I could just throw myself on to an on coming train or in fact push someone on to an on coming train.

To these thoughts I would step back, completely away from the platform frightened I could think like that.
I would sometimes think that my food was being poisoned, and would battle with myself for thinking like this. I had so many thoughts like this that I was sure I had a very severe mental illness because how can you think like this?

Looking after my son (I was a single parent at that time) I would get thoughts of oh dear what if I harm him. I was very afraid of this particular thought, although deep inside I knew that this was not possible but the fact that I was thinking it was hard to handle and again I questioned myself.

I became aware of myself talking to people, too aware of what I was thinking that I could not concentrate on what they were saying. I was watching my thoughts all the time and whilst in the middle of a conversation, I would forget what I was saying and be unable to respond to the person I was communicating with.

This soon became a problem for me, because it now made me nervous to hold conversations with people. This led to not being able to eat in front of people and not being able to talk on the phone. I would also be very nervous if I had to sign a cheque in a bank or in fact anywhere else.

My illness started with anxiety and because I became extremely mentally exhausted OCD followed. The way I recovered from my OCD was by the same principle as my recovery from anxiety.

I am glad to say that I am now fully recovered and enjoying life once again.

My Name is Bisola, married and a mother of 3 wonderful children. I suffered with anxiety for 20 years and I am now fully recovered. I have written an ebook about my experience and cure from anxiety and
http://anxietythoughts.com/

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